sad....heartbreak !!!

haiz....recently me reli bo mood n heartbreak ar..so sad and heart pain...me bcome hot-tempered, no mood 2 study n owes wan cry onli... feel so lonely...i guess i noe hui love another gal....haiz...
i saw him with another gal dat day so feel so sad n heart pain..i saw he take pic wit janet i oso feel sad...n i saw him so close wit fiona seem lik hugging, i oso so jeolous and heart break...no matter recently i cant sleep well and owes dream...i reli feel vry sad 2 knw the truth...bt i reli cnt giv up on him...i reli live him 2 much..me oso owes say rough words...haiz
wat i can do nw....heart so pain....

heartache!!!

my heart reli pain...i vry afraid...i reli dun hav much courage...........i dun wan 2 knw anyting abt hui, i cant go on anymor....yest i sent a msg 2 him, n digi sent bec a msg 2 me said dat his number is switched out of digi n no longer in my family n frens..i so sad n started 2 tink alot..i tink mayb is he want 2 avoid me from calling him or wat...arhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........so pain..i reli wan 2 c him...
i owes hope i can in hospital agn..no matter is accident or wat...i oso hope someting happen 2 me..i knw wat i tink is ridiculous, bt dis is bcoz i reli wish 2 c hui agn....only lik dis i can him gok...bcoz of him i rela seksa diri...am i a fool ??

suddenly so miss him...

just nw i take my amoi de hp 2 c bec the msg, some of the msg dat is still left,from kim and hui..after seeing those msg, i miss kim so much..i miss the time when we just started 2 get 2 knw each other....mayb we ever got a wrong concept at 1st..o wrong mind at 1st...bt it just sekelip mata...kita mempunyai perasaan yg tidak mgkn wujud,...nw, it all pass ord....at the end, my heart is stil at hui ther n now u gt someone u lik as well....i knw we gt gap ord....the feeling at 1st hard 2 find bec ord....bt i relly miss u nw....hehe....anyway, in my heart stil got u de...bt hui is the most important one....

hmm, wat happen 2 me ?? Duno...

I ask Kim n yun siang 2 go sing K yesterday...there are a few reasons y do it, coz i wan spend my time wit my old fren, i wan take pendrive from yun siang n most importantly i wan to c kim coz i so long din c him....bt he only spend abt less than 2 hours wit me nia..haiz..havent reli c him, ord wan say bye bye 2 him...haiz....me ofcoz feel a bit disappointed lo...even tink wan go hug him a while..haiz...
2day, i talked wit julie abt him, n i more confirm dat he loves soon yu, well, 4 me is nting, bt i afraid i will jeolous coz i dun lik someone who i trust, who owes spend time wit me n cares 4 me suddenly gt gf..haiz...duno wat happen 2 me...me n kim just lik bro n sis, y i can b so selfish...
Hui oso make me feel sad, coz he owes reject my invitation 2 go K...i din c him 4 half year ord...2day my dad bring bec aust de brochure, nw i reli nid 2 consider whether wan 2 leave o nt...
bt i reli bu she de......do here reli got someting dat worth me 2 stay ????i duno..........

hmm..love u love u not ??? miss u miss u not??

Emm, tink bec of my fren, kim n hui...both is my bro...someone who cares 4 me a lot...o i shld say, someone who ever care 4 me...even though kim stil do care 4 me bt bcoz nw i find him mor than he find me, n sometimes i cant even get him wit me when i nid him..haiz...dis make me tink of the last time hw close we 2gehter..haiz
n hui lagi teruk, no respond at all..haiz..
sometimes i miss kim vry much, duno y, bt only sometimes la...bt i miss hui more...haiz...y until nw no news from him de..cal him no pick up n sms no reply oso..haiz..
wat is love??? i only hope 2 chat wit him once in a while oso hard ma ??? even as fren oso can contact once in a while ma...haiz............i reli duno wat 2 do nw...haiz....

3 weeks...

this is the 3rd week i din chat wit kim...bt 2day i gt sent a msg 4 him...dat msg come from nyuk chin somewhat abt fren de...so, i sent 2 him n hui....well, just a forwarded msg n no purpose of chatting....so, i guess, is nt a big deal....
i miss hui vry much la...bt he never knw dat...he oso wont find me....i miss him, love him bt at the same time scared of him bcoz im trying 2 avoid him bt i cant do it...haiz....i reli duno wat im doin nw...........me reli useless...haiz.......

2nd week i din sms u

Nw is the 2nd week i din sms u...i oso din hav any news abt u.... 2day is valentines, if last time, me sur wil nt let the day pass without sms wit u...bt nw, me wil just pass it lik dat....me din even bother wan sms u o nt...coz i knw u got her 2 chat wit... if u reli wan chat wit me, u wil sms me 2...so i no nid 2 do anyting either..
Last time, i thought u can replace hui place, bt nw i realise dat, the one i love the most is stil hui...i cant 4get him...u r just the one i ever imagine, i ever hope, i ever spend time 2gether bt stil we r different................