hmm, wat happen 2 me ?? Duno...

I ask Kim n yun siang 2 go sing K yesterday...there are a few reasons y do it, coz i wan spend my time wit my old fren, i wan take pendrive from yun siang n most importantly i wan to c kim coz i so long din c him....bt he only spend abt less than 2 hours wit me nia..haiz..havent reli c him, ord wan say bye bye 2 him...haiz....me ofcoz feel a bit disappointed lo...even tink wan go hug him a while..haiz...
2day, i talked wit julie abt him, n i more confirm dat he loves soon yu, well, 4 me is nting, bt i afraid i will jeolous coz i dun lik someone who i trust, who owes spend time wit me n cares 4 me suddenly gt gf..haiz...duno wat happen 2 me...me n kim just lik bro n sis, y i can b so selfish...
Hui oso make me feel sad, coz he owes reject my invitation 2 go K...i din c him 4 half year ord...2day my dad bring bec aust de brochure, nw i reli nid 2 consider whether wan 2 leave o nt...
bt i reli bu she de......do here reli got someting dat worth me 2 stay ????i duno..........

hmm..love u love u not ??? miss u miss u not??

Emm, tink bec of my fren, kim n hui...both is my bro...someone who cares 4 me a lot...o i shld say, someone who ever care 4 me...even though kim stil do care 4 me bt bcoz nw i find him mor than he find me, n sometimes i cant even get him wit me when i nid him..haiz...dis make me tink of the last time hw close we 2gehter..haiz
n hui lagi teruk, no respond at all..haiz..
sometimes i miss kim vry much, duno y, bt only sometimes la...bt i miss hui more...haiz...y until nw no news from him de..cal him no pick up n sms no reply oso..haiz..
wat is love??? i only hope 2 chat wit him once in a while oso hard ma ??? even as fren oso can contact once in a while ma...haiz............i reli duno wat 2 do nw...haiz....