3 weeks...

this is the 3rd week i din chat wit kim...bt 2day i gt sent a msg 4 him...dat msg come from nyuk chin somewhat abt fren de...so, i sent 2 him n hui....well, just a forwarded msg n no purpose of chatting....so, i guess, is nt a big deal....
i miss hui vry much la...bt he never knw dat...he oso wont find me....i miss him, love him bt at the same time scared of him bcoz im trying 2 avoid him bt i cant do it...haiz....i reli duno wat im doin nw...........me reli useless...haiz.......

2nd week i din sms u

Nw is the 2nd week i din sms u...i oso din hav any news abt u.... 2day is valentines, if last time, me sur wil nt let the day pass without sms wit u...bt nw, me wil just pass it lik dat....me din even bother wan sms u o nt...coz i knw u got her 2 chat wit... if u reli wan chat wit me, u wil sms me 2...so i no nid 2 do anyting either..
Last time, i thought u can replace hui place, bt nw i realise dat, the one i love the most is stil hui...i cant 4get him...u r just the one i ever imagine, i ever hope, i ever spend time 2gether bt stil we r different................

5 days din sms him

I stil got sms kim on Mon ( chu 8)..After dat, i din sms him anymor...Why so suddenly ??? i oso duno... I sick starting on Mon nite, bt i din tel him... and then my sick bcome worse, so i din even feel wan 2 tell him oso, i only tink of hui, so i din sms him.
Ohya, i just remembered, On mon nite, he said wan 2 go shen miao for helping out n in the msg ther he put a 'bye' , so, mayb is bcoz of dat make me hav a reason dun wan find him anymor... i vry sensitive if ppl put a bye in a text msg, coz last time when im angry o dissapointed, i wil use that word, n it reli a bit hurt...
Well, nvm then, just wanna write down hw many days i can control myself 2 nt sms him...
so, im goin 2 giv myself, emm, 90 marks for dis week...haha...